Cotton-headed and Sleepy

I'm tired.

I don't want to be in college anymore. I don't want to study all the time, or be told which books to read. I don't want to sit in a half circle listening to other students who don't know how to read aloud.

I don't want to be friends with anyone. It's a never-ending stream of disappointments and letdowns. No one is who they say they are. No one really gives a shit. The only reason the idea of friendship exists is for survival. We all try to attach ourselves to the strongest alpha in the group.

All I want to do is drink myself into an oblivion every evening, sleep soundly, and wake up to shelves of books and coffee. I will read and write and drink and curl into pools of sunlight.

I'm tired...